It is October 1st - seriously? A few years back, I began to thank God for specific days. You know, like "Thank you God for Monday, September 30 2013". I said those words yesterday and actually began to choke up. Totally threw me for a loop - did not expect that.
In some ways, I think I've just thought it would be a good idea to get this year over - get through all those "firsts" again. Still, I just don't think I thought it would go SO fast. I also LOVE, LOVE, LOVE Fall. I wait for it beginning January 1st of every year. Every year I also make a deal with myself to slow down and really enjoy the fall days. Every year, I wake up and it's December 1st and fall is done. This year was going to be different - my life looks different this fall without mom and her care. There should be time. Tell that to September - totally gone and I didn't even really know it was here.
I can give you many reasons why October and November will feel the same way - lots of life going on, a wedding to help plan (that is a whole 'nother post), and a house that was full before I brought home a whole lot of what was in my parents' home. So.much.to.do.
I'm learning though, that the choice is mine most of time. I wake up each morning and make a decision whether I will rush through every moment of the day, already anticipating what the next moment needs to look like OR choosing to live in the moment I am in.
Truth - I am not at all sure how I will do this month with my choices but I am going to try. I desperately want to slow down, live in and cherish the moments, and just be grateful.
Thirty-one days to try. I'm going to start with today.
Enjoy the moment!
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